Why am I so happy, bros?  I'm broke and in debt up to my ears--according to any normal measurement scale, I oughta be busy tying the noose to my overhead light and stickin my neck inside.  And yet I'm walkin around SINGIN.  What gives?

The first three years since I moved back here to LA I was building a CAREER, working the 9-to-5 like any other joe (only in my case it was 7-to-7).  I had a fairly prestigious position for this town, production coordinator for a network TV show.  The money was ok, at least it was paying the bills and slowly lifting me outta debt.  But I felt like I was sleepwalkin through the years.  I could do the job, but it didn't excite me.

When I gave it all up (actually, it gave ME up) and decided to train and paint, I knew it was gonna be risky and take some time.  It's proved to be even harder than I thought--I LOVE the work, and really LOVE my clients and the buds I've made here.  So far, it's just not been that easy picking up clients.  The art thing is even TOUGHER!  If you've noticed, I haven't added any new paintings to my gallery in months, mainly because I have art piled up all over my house.  Until somebody shows an interest, I gotta put the painting thing on hold.

So let's sum things up:  I'm broke, I place ads for new clients and nobody calls, and I have this great portfolio of superhero paintings that nobody but me is that interested in.  My newly-chosen career of personal fitness trainer must be kind of a joke--trainers are truly dime-a-dozen in this town, and though I know I'm better than most, they're paying the bills and I'm not.

BUT I LOOOOOOVVVE MY LIFE, guys!  When I'm workoing out with someone I like, I feel so close to them.  And when I see the progress, I feel like I've made some kinda good impact on their lives.  Even the clients who get lazy or slough off, or blow me off--there's not one that I regret having had this relationship with.  The last few years I came to a realization that despite being smart and smartass, and pretty creative (all talents that add up to a big ZIP in the financial arena anyway) my one big gift in life is that I love making people feel better for having known me.  And of all the things I've done in my life, this time my workday world and inner purpose are finally working together.

So I gotta hope that things look up financially, or at least don't come crashing down around my head.  Because the one thing I got in my life right now counts more than all the other crap put together.  Hope you guys find it too...

LEN

What's that spring in yr step, Spidey bro?!  Looks like you got it too!

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